I truly do

It hurts me a lot

I couldn't bear the pain to myself

I want to talk with you

You were a good listener

I appreciated it a lot

But now...

It seems life doesn't let us to be together

I bottled up everything

I ignore everything and put on a mask

A mask that everyone will think it's 'me'

That 'me' always smiling

That 'me' always laughing

That 'me' always being cringy

No one knows behind that mask

What if that mask was fallen?

Will you still befriend with 'me'?

I know you won't
Cause you already hurt me indirectly
And I know you won't trust me again

If suicide attempt isn't a crime, I would have done sooner
People like you made me feel this way

If it's true you don't like me, why didn't you tell me in the first place?
I apologize for being an emotional dumbass
All I got was bluetick
I guess seek for forgiveness is not mandatory in this world

You said that I 'pretended' for having anxiety
So that means you treat me like a robot
With no emotions
Cause you thought robot being emotional is such a bizarre idea

You don't even know how I progressed
You don't even know what I've dealt with

You should be grateful of yourself
If you don't like me, tell your God
Aren't you more religious than me?
Then you shouldn't do like that to me indirectly

Yes, I'm offended.
You win.