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Poem: darkness in me ★

Saturday, September 28, 2019 | September 28, 2019

I was at the bottom rock

I couldn't keep my head up

I was devastated

I couldn't explain the pain in words

I tried to let my voice out

but it stuck within my throat

my heart wouldn't let me tell the truth

I felt lonely

It was so lonely that I couldn't bear my emotions

There're people who reached out their hands

But I pushed them away

I keep on asking myself

Why am I here?

Why am I still breathing?

Why didn't my parents just abort me?

I messed up

Even achievements that I got wouldn't help me feel better

Cause it's not for me

I did everything to be happy

To have that feeling of excitement

When I'm home

It all comes back again

I felt so lonely

That I shut everyone out

People worried about me

I don't want them to be

But this demon inside me

Is killing me inside

I told myself not to cry

I told myself everything will be alright

I told myself it's just the matter of time

I told myself I can overcome when it pass by

In the end

I'm laying in bed

Suicidal thoughts are taking over me

I let them happen

Everything will be fine. I'm here with you. - darkness -

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